2023/07

I''''mnotassertiveaboutwhatisthe''''something''''

    EventhoughIdon''''tknow,I''''mntoknoouldpossiblyhappen,whatIwouldfeel,whatIshouldfeelinthenearfutureifIreallylose''''something''''

    Ijustwanttocatethingwhosemeaningorworthofhavingitisobscureandvagueforme

    Idon''''tknowtheultimate''''why''''Ihavetoreachthese

    ButIjustsomehowpossesstheextremelystrongeageranddesiretogetwhateverI,atthemoment,wahoughitisjustsometinylittletrifles

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    ReallywhenItrulygetthat,orclimbtothestatethatI''''want''''

    Idon''''tfeenythingexpectforthemomentaryhappinessoffinallygetit

    Idon''''tknowwhatthegoalis,orwhatIamgoingtodo

    PerhapsIdidn''''tevenhaveagoa